Cuckold -5- Direct

He remembered the first time he watched. Not in person—God, no. Through a crack in the door, trembling, ashamed of his own pulse. She had laughed with the other man in a low, smoky way she never laughed with him. That laugh was a key turning in a lock he didn’t know he had.

“Mark thinks you should try the bitter marmalade.” Cuckold -5-

He had stopped counting after the third. But the fifth—the fifth had a name. Not hers. His . The other man’s. And the way she said it, over eggs and coffee, as if it were a season or a mild allergy. He remembered the first time he watched

He wanted to say: I have become the furniture of your betrayal. I am the chair you sit on while thinking of him. I am the mirror that watches you dress for him. I am the fifth in a series of humiliations that now have their own gravity. She had laughed with the other man in

Not “Mark says.” Not “Mark told me.” But thinks . As though Mark’s opinions had migrated into the architecture of their breakfast. As though Mark had been there, in the kitchen, last night, while he slept upstairs.

Outside, a car passed. Maybe Mark’s. Maybe not.